Thursday, December 30, 2010
2010 was an emotional year for me, with a lot of upswings and downfalls. I spent the first half of the year in Merryland, while the rest of the year was back in Spore. Really emo for me. First, I had my last semester of studies, then I had my graduation. Subsequently Cha and I went for a few more trips, such as a re-tour of the east coast with his family, and our own graduation tour at Yellowstone and Grand Teton. Not to forget that we had our New year countdown at the Seattle Needle and previous Xmas at Alaska. Wow. Unforgettable. Then after much fatigue from all the packing, we returned back to Singapore. Really happy to see my family and friends, still in the pink of their health after 2 years. Many are even getting married! Soon after that, I went to Shanghai with my parents, which given my bz work schedule now, could be my 'only' family trip in the foreseeable future.
Have to admit I missed life in Merryland a lot. The kind of freedom we had. Going on roadtrips whenever we had holidays. Building and living our lives in our first home together. Getting all excited about snow storms. Thinking about what dinner to prepare for Cha today. Even enjoying life as students together, and doing our homework diligently opposite each other... All these memories make me really nostalgic and sometimes make my work life a little unbearable. Think I'm too spoilt. But I really prefer simple life like this...
Next I experienced the anxiety of finding a job. At that time I was really scared that I am not able to find a job I enjoy. Now that I have found the ideal one, one which every fresh grad specializing in Finance (I suppose?) would want to start off in their career, then I begin to worry for my performance, whether it's up to standard. Especially when I seem to know nuts about the operations and procedures, and pale so much in comparison with my colleague. Maybe I'm too hou2 ji2. But who won't worry, when it's so competitive in the banking sector. Anyway, just let nature takes its course bah. Or else too much things to stress about.
2011. Of cuz I hope this would be a better year. But I guess it would take sometime before I won't miss Merryland life entirely. *tink Cha will flip*...prob it won't happen..I dunno.. The most important thing now is to learn and absorb as much as I can in the new job. 2011 is also the year I will be holding my customary wedding. Again...the cost is a huge concern for me...hope I can at least breakeven. Really heart pain for the amount of $ my parents have to fork out for my wedding. I rather not have it at all to minimise cost.
Looking forward to taking my bridal shoots in Taiwan next year. Hope everything goes PERFECTLY fine. Start to get worried again. Damn. Next we have to start planning for honeymoon!! WOOHOO... The most awaited item on BB's list. Not even the banquet matches up to it. haaa...Finally, with some luck, we might get our house before Oct. PRAY HARD FOR IT!! A lot of $$ to be spent on renovations and furniture...but I don't care liao...I want my own house near Orchard Road and MRT! hehe...
In any case...I really pray hard that my career will be successful, or at least I can get very comfortable with my current job. Of course.. win the next big sweep, which will automatically solve all my problems. Most most most impt, I hope my family, close frens, Cha and I will have a healthy and safe year ahead. That's the most important. I just want a happy year.
*ps. it was really tiring for me, a 27-year old woman who has to sleep at 10.30pm every night to write the blog. But I know I will surely have a lot of regrets if I cannot post this last entry for 2010. Looking forward to 2011 NY celebration with Cha=)
Labels: 2010, New Year
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