Sunday, July 27, 2008
Time seems to fly past these few weeks. Perhaps too much things happening. My Europe trip in May, and now I'm preparing for my US stay in 2 weeks time. Have less than 2 weeks to pack now, the first thing I'm going to do tomorrow is to clean up my room. It has been a mess for a few months liao..Hope to make my room clean and tidy bfore I fly... Although finally I dun have to work anymore, dunno y, it has been replaced with a indescribable empty feeling. I'm scared of the unknown for the next two yrs. I know chances are I'm going to enjoy my stay in the States, but for now, at this moment, I feel lost and homesick. Haiz...I can't back out now. It was a decision I had made, and I'm going to follow it thru w Cha... Afterall, my hubby is going to be with me...
Went for another consultation yesterday. Since I couldn't feel the lumps anymore, I half expected the doc to say congrats, the lumps are shrinking. Instead she said, it has been lumpier than she had last examined...Now great, fancy hearing this 2 weeks before I have to leave...I've been following the doc's instructions, have been avoiding chicken meat and soy bean, and yet there seems to be more lumps now...Doc says could be due to stress, I tink is probably pre-US distress or wat la, dunno how to describe my feelings these few weeks. But will follow this up with the docs in States, hopefully it could turn out better. I have a hunch that I'd be very stressed out all the way up till I can settle down in my new home in a strange new country and this is not any help to my current condition at all. But what can I do? Just have to control my diet and keep my mood happy and stress-free, although it would be diff during this period of time. Dun even dare to tell my mum later she more worried as it is now...haiz... Im quite scared, and this, adds on to my worries...
Just had zhi char with my family at the Japanese Garden, missed the food there. Also went to Msia to visit my ah-ku with Cha yesterday.. Feels great to have dinner with them again, we had a very sumptuous seafood spread in Kulai. Too bad one of my close cousin is not there... Could tell Chaa enjoyed the crabs and prawns a lot... Will be back to dine there again in 2 yrs time de...
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